Sunday, December 20, 2009

Stop This Train

It seems that so frequently ended relationships are likened to transportation. The funniest is "Girls are like buses, miss one next 15 one coming."  Ok, I admit that was Gucci Mane, and really isn't a coherent statement, but you get the gist.  Lately, my friend's declaration that "this train moves forward, not backward" has been resonating through my mind.  I wish it was that simple for me.  To move onward to new faces and new places without glancing back at the past.  Even though the train moves forward, every other boxcar has seats facing backward.  Everyone knows facing the opposite direction can give you motion sickness...I'm just not sure why I always end up with the wack seat.

Perhaps it's so difficult because in my world, stalkers keep honing devices charged up on their hip. Is it just me?  Why do these characters (of all people) always come back STRONG when I'm single. Every time I'm having a Beyonce me, myself and I moment, the phone starts ringing with those familiar old catastrophes?  Whiskey tango, big brother are the cameras on?  Why are THEY all of a sudden calling, NOW?  We all can use a beautiful distraction periodically...and it's nice to have familiar folks remind you that through it all they'd still ride out with you (ha, another one)...but I'm sick of the same tired cycle.  So (insert stalker names here), I know how things used to be, but I'm heading in a new direction (I'm on a roll, lol). Forget switching seats, just stop this train. I'm hopping off.  I think I'm going to walk for a while until I figure out a better way to reach my destination.


  1. I totally understand where you're coming from. There's a guy I used to date in college, nearly 10 years ago, that every year or so tries to make his way back into my life. I always brush him off and say it didn't work then, it's not going to work now. Then somehow I always fall for it.

    I don't know if I end up somewhat rekindling things because of being lonely or because I'm an eternal optimist who is hopeful that maybe one day things will work and we'll have a happy ending.

    Trust me, I understand how frustrating it is once you get over someone and they keep popping back up in your life. We have to be strong and keep moving forward.

  2. I'm going to take your advice...and hopefully this year, you will too ;)